Welcome to the new year! I hope everyone had a great (and safe) New Year’s Eve and is ready to tackle 2012 with a vengeance…or, at least, some moderate enthusiasm. For some reason, I’m really looking forward to 2012 and all the challenges it holds. The struggle of being self-employed; the search for a new part-time job; the ongoing quest to photograph people, places and things and create interesting and eye-catching images; the continual growth and education that comes with being an entrepreneur; and the fight we all face every day – growing older.
I turned the big 4-0 last year. Years ago, I thought it would be a traumatic or earth-shattering event, but really, it was OK. It came and went with a little fanfare thanks to some close friends and family. But it wasn’t the cosmic blast I expected. After all, it’s just another day – one that happens to mark the occasion of our birth and add another hash mark to the aging scoreboard. And really, at this point in my life, I should still be feeling pretty young and chipper. And I am, most of the time…until I have to walk up more than three flights of stairs, chase my energetic dog around the yard, or shoot a nine hour wedding on New Year’s Eve toting around cameras and lenses, constantly walking/moving/bending/standing to get “the” shot, and only sitting down for less than five minutes to inhale a meal before the bride and groom cut the cake.
The first couple of tasks wear me out pretty quick (and make me angry that I’m worn out by such simple bursts of effort). But that last one turned me into a pathetic, exhausted and dehydrated mess two days ago. After the event was over, I went to bed, slept terrible, woke up feeling like a freight train had not only run me over but dragged me down the tracks and wondered how the hell I would EVER do it again.
A little dramatic? Maybe. Exactly how I felt? Yes, perhaps even worse.
It was the straw that broke this girl’s back and made me realize I had to make a change. To be fair, my husband (and mother – of course, what are mother’s for?) have been telling me for some time that I’ve grown too stagnate and need to get back on the bike, back to the gym, back to some kind of exercise. And they were right. But until I came to the same conclusion, it just wasn’t happening. I’m not a Taurean in name only, you know…
So, what’s a girl to do? What perfect timing – it’s the new year! I’ll make some resolutions! Of course!
Ummm, in a word, no.
Resolutions seem to have a way of lasting for a few weeks and then making their way to the attic in our brains with all the other items that only come out once a year. No, I don’t need resolutions that last a short amount of time, I need RESOLVE. Every. Single. Day.
I looked it up – just to make sure I was doing the right thing – and here is what I found. Resolve is a noun which means decision or determination. Its synonyms include courage, design, fixed purpose, steadfastness, and will.
Looks like I’m on the right track.
Now, for those of you who know me pretty well, I can assume that by now you are probably throwing something at your computer screen, or laughing, or cursing at me under your breath because I’m not what you would call fat or overweight by most standards. And you’re right. I’m pretty darn lucky in that regard. However, I AM pretty darn unhappy with how I look and feel most days. Therefore, drastic times call for drastic measures.
I am one of those people who step on the scale every now and then only to jump back in horror whenever the number comes up. I’ve spent some money over the past few years buying the next size up and telling myself it was only temporary and I’d get back in my favorite jeans or sleeveless shirt eventually. Guess what? Eventually hasn’t shown up yet.
The first step in my RESOLVE project was to take a few measurements of myself this morning and WRITE THEM DOWN. ON PAPER. In black and white. Numbers that will be displayed on my refrigerator door. On my bathroom mirror. On my iPhone. On a post-it note my wallet. ON MY COMPUTER SCREEN. Anywhere I can think that it will make a difference to me EVERY DAY and maintain my RESOLVE.
And that’s just the beginning. I also vow to include RESOLVE in other areas of my life…which I’ll discuss in future posts, should you care to tune in.
Want to join me? Shoot me an email and we’ll RESOLVE together.
LET’S DO IT.